my..my...i've been facing a lot harder situation than this...it really needs physical and emotional strength.but since my quite horrible experience in matrix regarding da hectic schedule and tonnes of work to be done...this is my 1st experience of being mental-crashed in iium..
1st and foremost..after i've been so REDHA about getting one-year programme in here...which i actually can adapt (thx to my 'worthful' experience in matrix)..ma fwens and i are suddenly asked to attend a briefing about our study plan..so here,i hav to sign an agreement that eventually can change my future.
i got two option-stay in one-year programme or extend for one and a half year.i never expected to hav a sudden-strucked-opportunity like this!and i only hav less than 24 hours to think about it!!!huwaaa..i honestly don wanna think about it from da start.and i've neglected all the possibilities.so this is wut i really feel.actually,from the bottom of my heart,i felt really difficult to let go my one-year programme..but i noe dat i got to consider a lot of things aside from the advantages of doing one year..
so,i started crushing my brain into pieces-finding da best decision.so i started to call my home,talk 2 my sis (although i noe dat won't help much) coz at da end of da day...da answer will be juz da same-IT'S UP TO U...
so,here i go again...swelling into tears of facing my biggest fear-MAKING DECISION.i started to talk to my friends,seniors (as my family suggest) n i got variety of opinion which make nothing much easier.so,i went and made da best action i could-talk to the dean and the deputy dean and also da course coordinator.
but at da end of da day again..it will only be me and my screwed up brain.so,i seek for the best solution-ISTIQARAH.and yeah,it IS da best way out of everything.but i actually a lil bit confuse da way dat i'll get da answer.i decided to wait until i go to sleep (da way i owez do) and i wait for my dream.huhu..but suddenly someone said that you'll get da instict.
so,i started to concentrated on wut my heart is feeling (though it won't really work actually) coz i'm juz so messed up.and then,i talked to my roommate who insisted me of accompanying her by doing one year.and at dat time,she already change her mind and give da opposite opinion.and then out of the blue,mdm fadzilah (dean of dept of sc prog) text me at ONE o'clok in the morning..saying dat i can change my study plan to one and a half year and she'll help on 'add and drop' thing..n oso somebody called me and support my idea of extending my study plan..
so,i am so convinced dat all da sudden incidence are SIGNALS from GOD..coz i'm really facing dead end at dat time.and i can't expressed how GRATEFUL i am for getting such a GUIDANCE from HIM.ALHAMDULILLAH...
so in a nut shell,(aiseh!) i already made a decision dat i think da best dat i can get.so for da sake of me REALLY WANT to convert to CRITICAL COURSE (which is da main reason i come to iium)...i'm EXTENDING my study plan to one and a half year.so PLS DO PRAY DA BEST FOR ME..n ALLAH MA'ANA..Insya-Allah jayyid..fighting!hehe...
p/s: thx to all people who helped me get through dis making-decision-period.JAZAKUMULLAHU KHAIRAN KATHEERA.. (^_^)
