INDAH

sabar itu indah
tawakkal itu indah
redha itu terindah

Alhamdulillah..
syukur itu penyudah yang indah

di saat hatimu digoncang kebimbangan
ketakutan dan kerisauan

di saat itu
syukur
sabar
redha
dan yakin itu adalah yang
TERINDAH

ALHAMDULILLAH...!!

jackpot

ok
i just hit the jackpot
right where it is

if it got bullet
it goes straight to my heart

though it hurts
it's just what i need

said who?
said me to myself

it won't work..

don't try to fix me with music

it won't work

gimme so7,gimme m2m

gimme my most fevret music

of all time

it won't work

definitely

coz my lust to music

just suddenly dead

totally dead

every music turns ugly

just an idiotic sound

with people screaming

or swaying helplessly

like there's nothing in this world

except those FAKE LOVE

gimme REAL LOVE

i'll take it

and i know what's the real music

i'm looking for

Thank God~

surat utk Aisyah Farhanah

Baby..

baru beberapa hari Aisyah jejak ke dunia ni..

Acu pun bru jupe Aisyah skali...

tapi Acu nak Aisyah tau Acu syg Aisyah sgt2

saat first2 tgk Aisyah Farhanah comel sgt..

tp tak sangka kte jmpe saat2 camni..

dkt emergency room..

tapi Acu ttp nk Aisyah tau..

Acu syg Aisyah sgt2

wlaupun Aisyah yg ke-7

Acu syg Aisyah mcm Acu syg sume

Aisyah kuat neh

Acu tau Aisyah kuat..

sbb tu kecik2 lagi Aisyah kena uji..

sbb nanti Aisyah insyaAllah jadi kuat!

ari ni Acu kene tinggal Aisyah

Acu ade klas nk kne catch up

Acu tinggal bear ke Aisyah..

biar dye teman Aisyah..

lps klas nanti Acu pegi jupe Aisyah..

insyaAllah.

smoga ALLAH permudah blake..

Rabbi Yassir Wa La Tu'assir

Aisyah kne kuat!

sbb Acu syg Aisyah.

p/s: Mama n Papa Aisyah

kecekalan kalian ku puji

I hope there's more that I can help T_T

Smoge ALLAH limpahkan rahmat di sebalik dugaan ini...

Ameen

Doakan Aisyah Farhanah

Heart's Vessel n Valve Operation

Ins. Jantung Negara KL

4th Sept 09 (evening)

-trainism-

roller-coaster ride..
though the train didn't swirl like those in theme park..
but it's enuf to make me dizzy..
but yet EPPI!!

this whole month of Ramadhan..
each and every week,
i'll seek for a chance to sneak out to my..
sis ouse!!

where i found familiarity..
things that make me calm n comfy~

though it's one and a half hour journey
plus ride from campus to sentral..
enuf to make me throw up
when eventually hav to sit beside
fat big chinese guy

still..
to see my sis face
able to talk to her on her bed
it's juz enuf to make me stand another week..
of dreadful HOMESICK~

drama queen??

dramatic life belongs to dramatic girl.so there goes drama everyday in a dramatic world of a dramatic girl.

dizzy?i'm throwing up.wekkk ;p

lagu atyku~

ATAS NAMA CINTA

UNIC

Tika mata
Diuji manisnya senyuman
Terpamit rasa menyubur harapan

Dan seketika
Terlontar ke dunia khayalan
Hingga terlupa singkat perjalanan
Tersedar aku dari terlena
Dibuai lembut belaian cinta

Rela aku pendamkan
Impian yang tersimpan
Enggan ku keasyikan
Gusar keindahannya
Merampas rasa cinta
Pada Dia yang lebih sempuna

Bukan mudah
Bernafas dalam jiwa hamba
Dan ku cuba
Menghindarkan pesona maya
Kerna tak upaya ku hadapinya
Andai murka-Nya menghukum leka

Diatas nama cinta
Pada yang selayaknya
Kunafikan yang fana
Moga dalam hitungan
Setiap pengorbanan
Agar disuluh cahaya redha-Nya

Biar sendiri hingga hujung nyawa
Asal tak sepi dari kasih-Nya
Kerna sesungguhnya hakikat cinta
Hanya Dia yang Esa

Saratkan hati ini dengan cinta hakiki
Sehingga ku rasai
Nikmat-Nya
Syurga-Nya
Cinta-Nya

alhamdulillah... =)

presentation-finished-satisfied
bio quiz-postponed-relief
writing english-done-checked
math-on the way-go for it!!

not hungry-don't eat-save money =p
go home-counting-can't wait

can see the contrast with previous one??
didn't He say INNA MA'AL 'USRI YUSRA?

wut we have to do is juz be patient and believe..
ALHAMDULILLAH... ;)

wut's up wif ol dis stuff?

tears welling-burst-wetting a bunch of papers
a cup of nescafe-wanna sleep but can't-vomit
look at phone-didn't reply-piss off
hungry-food-overload-regret
assignments-finished-next
study-math-patient

rain-omma-home
girl-emo-dramatic
it happens~

still writing..

i wish i can write juz a lil bit...like a note...coz everytime i post something, it must be like an essay (huahua) and i dun really like it (so dun do it la..haha) coz i oso spend too much time reading my own posts (x malu! seeking 4 error xceli huhu..)

today is juz nice...nothing so interesting to share..but last nite i got nerve break down..dun have exact reason..i'm not exploding when i got tonnes of quizzes, but i can guarantee to explode when i got nothing to do..gagaga...

next week gonna start mid-sem xm..pray 4 me neh..but lots of pipel are too looking 4ward.i mean to go back home lar!hukhuk..me three exceli..but the absence of my sis and her family will do put a big hole when i got back.sigh~

**missing my babes- iffah, sarah, ashraf, faatir, ateef and syifa'**
ACU MISZ OL OF U~~

brain damage man...

my..my...i've been facing a lot harder situation than this...it really needs physical and emotional strength.but since my quite horrible experience in matrix regarding da hectic schedule and tonnes of work to be done...this is my 1st experience of being mental-crashed in iium..

1st and foremost..after i've been so REDHA about getting one-year programme in here...which i actually can adapt (thx to my 'worthful' experience in matrix)..ma fwens and i are suddenly asked to attend a briefing about our study plan..so here,i hav to sign an agreement that eventually can change my future.

i got two option-stay in one-year programme or extend for one and a half year.i never expected to hav a sudden-strucked-opportunity like this!and i only hav less than 24 hours to think about it!!!huwaaa..i honestly don wanna think about it from da start.and i've neglected all the possibilities.so this is wut i really feel.actually,from the bottom of my heart,i felt really difficult to let go my one-year programme..but i noe dat i got to consider a lot of things aside from the advantages of doing one year..

so,i started crushing my brain into pieces-finding da best decision.so i started to call my home,talk 2 my sis (although i noe dat won't help much) coz at da end of da day...da answer will be juz da same-IT'S UP TO U...

so,here i go again...swelling into tears of facing my biggest fear-MAKING DECISION.i started to talk to my friends,seniors (as my family suggest) n i got variety of opinion which make nothing much easier.so,i went and made da best action i could-talk to the dean and the deputy dean and also da course coordinator.

but at da end of da day again..it will only be me and my screwed up brain.so,i seek for the best solution-ISTIQARAH.and yeah,it IS da best way out of everything.but i actually a lil bit confuse da way dat i'll get da answer.i decided to wait until i go to sleep (da way i owez do) and i wait for my dream.huhu..but suddenly someone said that you'll get da instict.

so,i started to concentrated on wut my heart is feeling (though it won't really work actually) coz i'm juz so messed up.and then,i talked to my roommate who insisted me of accompanying her by doing one year.and at dat time,she already change her mind and give da opposite opinion.and then out of the blue,mdm fadzilah (dean of dept of sc prog) text me at ONE o'clok in the morning..saying dat i can change my study plan to one and a half year and she'll help on 'add and drop' thing..n oso somebody called me and support my idea of extending my study plan..

so,i am so convinced dat all da sudden incidence are SIGNALS from GOD..coz i'm really facing dead end at dat time.and i can't expressed how GRATEFUL i am for getting such a GUIDANCE from HIM.ALHAMDULILLAH...

so in a nut shell,(aiseh!) i already made a decision dat i think da best dat i can get.so for da sake of me REALLY WANT to convert to CRITICAL COURSE (which is da main reason i come to iium)...i'm EXTENDING my study plan to one and a half year.so PLS DO PRAY DA BEST FOR ME..n ALLAH MA'ANA..Insya-Allah jayyid..fighting!hehe...

p/s: thx to all people who helped me get through dis making-decision-period.JAZAKUMULLAHU KHAIRAN KATHEERA.. (^_^)

waaa...so fast!

quite fast isn't it?with a slow beginning,i'm now speeding but dunno where to..huhu wuteva..but maybe writing is inspiring?i hope so~i might won't have this kind of time again,so better make use of it.huhu^^

friday is the best day in the world.i'll be waiting for the day each and every week.and i'll be spending a lil more money on dat day.haha..after a hectic week,we actually SHUD give some appreciation to ourselves.huhu^^

saturday n sunday-even better!it's not really about resting and relaxing (although that's the main idea hehe) but the chance to complete assignments,do some revision,tidying the room,washing clothes (hehe) and also still got time for ourselves (like wut i'm doing now) is the best thing through this type of study based-living.

hurm...now wut?i've promised something...hehe..so let's juz begin the lesson.but maybe not too much..i'm not a professional anyway...i dun even formally learn this (huish~)

ni hao ma? how r u? -very common,kids in kindergaten also noe^^
ni yao cui na ni? where do u wanna go? ans: wo yao cui...(blank)....
ni zhai kamma? wut r u doing? ans: anything will do..hehe
ni se pao le ma? have u eaten? ans: se pao le...(already eaten)

hurm...dat's it i tink...i honestly dun really noe the exact spelling..n sumtimes the pronounciation is a lil bit different than the spelling..so if anybody's reading noes zhong wen,wo zhen de tue bu zhi ni..huhu^^

n today's FATHER'S DAY!!so,to BABA which i'm sure not reading this but nevermind..epi father's day n LUV u loads!!!i've been missing ur smile (dat crooked one hehe) n MISZ u loads~my hand is not long enough to show how much is it.huhu..stay healthy ba! xoxo

too late?

it's been a long time~i dun really intend on continue writing..but suddenly i really miss of seeing a new post in my blog..(^_^) btw,after a very chaotic weeks i had..i'm now safely landed on the Garden of Knowledge,CFS IIUM..

i dun really believe how did i get here,but one thing for sure..i'm irrevocably grateful of having a chance to pursue my dream here insyaAllah...

so,from matrix to foundation studies...apart from the environment,place and the people i met,there's no much differences.i mean the study scopes,core subjects,and the hectic schedule..coz Thank God i got one year period of study..(fuuuuh!) i shud juz accept the fact.huhu...so it's quite similar la..but tough is still tough..

got a diary now...(yucks!)dunno why i hav one..huhu.wuteva..but u noe wut?i juz found out it's actually really cool to have my own diary with the language dat i'm the only one can understand..safe n secure rite?hee..so i chose one-MANDARIN

here's the sample: (^_^)

so,wo yao jiang zhong wen sien zhai..bu zhi dao wei shen ma..bu kuo wo hen kai xin mei you ren ming bai..ying wei wo zhi dao wo de peng yao e ting bu ming bai.so,wo mei you pa ta men kan wo de su...huhu..ni bu ming bai wo suo se ma?mei guan shi..ni hui jiang zhong wen,ni kan wo de blog la..haha..

quite cruel rite??haha..so,i can write wuteva i want without the fear of somebody's reading it.huhu..zhen de kai xin..so,to be fair...i'll teach some Mandarin on the next post.hee~

1st post??

never crossed my mind to have my own blog...though i got one in fs...think that my life isn't that interesting to be shared but...i do have some interests that i hope will be in common with anyone...anyone-i mean it. =)

it all come out bcoz of...guess what??boring of course!!i sincerely don't have much to do..except for running from state to state...lending a hand to whoever needing it..huhu.seems like a rescuer..which i'm not exactly~

life after spm can be concluded into 3 words- dull.chaotic.messy.

guess that i didn't work much to make it better...don't even try to..hehe.well..these are things i've done:-

12th march - spm result
13th n 2 weeks in a row - mourning~~
late march - license! psm...
after a week - meeting frenz! sya n mcna..
7th april - going kl.. at last!
8th april n a week - perak..babysit~
16th april - cont. license..late2
17 april - matrix result.. pahang (tought so..huhu)

not so interesting rite?? haha..but i'm really looking forward in writing further..maybe not too much about my life..i got a huge fond in writing stories n reading novels..maybe i could share my thought??did i sound like a geek?omg!~ (^-^)