brain damage man...

my..my...i've been facing a lot harder situation than this...it really needs physical and emotional strength.but since my quite horrible experience in matrix regarding da hectic schedule and tonnes of work to be done...this is my 1st experience of being mental-crashed in iium..

1st and foremost..after i've been so REDHA about getting one-year programme in here...which i actually can adapt (thx to my 'worthful' experience in matrix)..ma fwens and i are suddenly asked to attend a briefing about our study plan..so here,i hav to sign an agreement that eventually can change my future.

i got two option-stay in one-year programme or extend for one and a half year.i never expected to hav a sudden-strucked-opportunity like this!and i only hav less than 24 hours to think about it!!!huwaaa..i honestly don wanna think about it from da start.and i've neglected all the possibilities.so this is wut i really feel.actually,from the bottom of my heart,i felt really difficult to let go my one-year programme..but i noe dat i got to consider a lot of things aside from the advantages of doing one year..

so,i started crushing my brain into pieces-finding da best decision.so i started to call my home,talk 2 my sis (although i noe dat won't help much) coz at da end of da day...da answer will be juz da same-IT'S UP TO U...

so,here i go again...swelling into tears of facing my biggest fear-MAKING DECISION.i started to talk to my friends,seniors (as my family suggest) n i got variety of opinion which make nothing much easier.so,i went and made da best action i could-talk to the dean and the deputy dean and also da course coordinator.

but at da end of da day again..it will only be me and my screwed up brain.so,i seek for the best solution-ISTIQARAH.and yeah,it IS da best way out of everything.but i actually a lil bit confuse da way dat i'll get da answer.i decided to wait until i go to sleep (da way i owez do) and i wait for my dream.huhu..but suddenly someone said that you'll get da instict.

so,i started to concentrated on wut my heart is feeling (though it won't really work actually) coz i'm juz so messed up.and then,i talked to my roommate who insisted me of accompanying her by doing one year.and at dat time,she already change her mind and give da opposite opinion.and then out of the blue,mdm fadzilah (dean of dept of sc prog) text me at ONE o'clok in the morning..saying dat i can change my study plan to one and a half year and she'll help on 'add and drop' thing..n oso somebody called me and support my idea of extending my study plan..

so,i am so convinced dat all da sudden incidence are SIGNALS from GOD..coz i'm really facing dead end at dat time.and i can't expressed how GRATEFUL i am for getting such a GUIDANCE from HIM.ALHAMDULILLAH...

so in a nut shell,(aiseh!) i already made a decision dat i think da best dat i can get.so for da sake of me REALLY WANT to convert to CRITICAL COURSE (which is da main reason i come to iium)...i'm EXTENDING my study plan to one and a half year.so PLS DO PRAY DA BEST FOR ME..n ALLAH MA'ANA..Insya-Allah jayyid..fighting!hehe...

p/s: thx to all people who helped me get through dis making-decision-period.JAZAKUMULLAHU KHAIRAN KATHEERA.. (^_^)

waaa...so fast!

quite fast isn't it?with a slow beginning,i'm now speeding but dunno where to..huhu wuteva..but maybe writing is inspiring?i hope so~i might won't have this kind of time again,so better make use of it.huhu^^

friday is the best day in the world.i'll be waiting for the day each and every week.and i'll be spending a lil more money on dat day.haha..after a hectic week,we actually SHUD give some appreciation to ourselves.huhu^^

saturday n sunday-even better!it's not really about resting and relaxing (although that's the main idea hehe) but the chance to complete assignments,do some revision,tidying the room,washing clothes (hehe) and also still got time for ourselves (like wut i'm doing now) is the best thing through this type of study based-living.

hurm...now wut?i've promised something...hehe..so let's juz begin the lesson.but maybe not too much..i'm not a professional anyway...i dun even formally learn this (huish~)

ni hao ma? how r u? -very common,kids in kindergaten also noe^^
ni yao cui na ni? where do u wanna go? ans: wo yao cui...(blank)....
ni zhai kamma? wut r u doing? ans: anything will do..hehe
ni se pao le ma? have u eaten? ans: se pao le...(already eaten)

hurm...dat's it i tink...i honestly dun really noe the exact spelling..n sumtimes the pronounciation is a lil bit different than the spelling..so if anybody's reading noes zhong wen,wo zhen de tue bu zhi ni..huhu^^

n today's FATHER'S DAY!!so,to BABA which i'm sure not reading this but nevermind..epi father's day n LUV u loads!!!i've been missing ur smile (dat crooked one hehe) n MISZ u loads~my hand is not long enough to show how much is it.huhu..stay healthy ba! xoxo

too late?

it's been a long time~i dun really intend on continue writing..but suddenly i really miss of seeing a new post in my blog..(^_^) btw,after a very chaotic weeks i had..i'm now safely landed on the Garden of Knowledge,CFS IIUM..

i dun really believe how did i get here,but one thing for sure..i'm irrevocably grateful of having a chance to pursue my dream here insyaAllah...

so,from matrix to foundation studies...apart from the environment,place and the people i met,there's no much differences.i mean the study scopes,core subjects,and the hectic schedule..coz Thank God i got one year period of study..(fuuuuh!) i shud juz accept the fact.huhu...so it's quite similar la..but tough is still tough..

got a diary now...(yucks!)dunno why i hav one..huhu.wuteva..but u noe wut?i juz found out it's actually really cool to have my own diary with the language dat i'm the only one can understand..safe n secure rite?hee..so i chose one-MANDARIN

here's the sample: (^_^)

so,wo yao jiang zhong wen sien zhai..bu zhi dao wei shen ma..bu kuo wo hen kai xin mei you ren ming bai..ying wei wo zhi dao wo de peng yao e ting bu ming bai.so,wo mei you pa ta men kan wo de su...huhu..ni bu ming bai wo suo se ma?mei guan shi..ni hui jiang zhong wen,ni kan wo de blog la..haha..

quite cruel rite??haha..so,i can write wuteva i want without the fear of somebody's reading it.huhu..zhen de kai xin..so,to be fair...i'll teach some Mandarin on the next post.hee~